my sister

My dearest sister died at 4.30pm this afternoon after a massive heart attack and I am far more devastated that I thought I would be.   I have told myself for days that I did not want her to live on as an invalid but in fact obviously I did - that is selfish.   I am flooded with memories of our childhood and what a loving sister she was to me when I was a little girl.   What beautiful memories to leave behind.  RIP